Does your life suck? Or maybe not all of it sucks, maybe only one aspect sucks. It doesn't matter: suckage is suckage, whether it is your entire life or just one part of it. If you have some suckage going on in your life, the only thing you need to do to begin to change that is acknowledge that you want to change it.
The traditional wording of the First Step speaks to powerlessness. I prefer to look at it this way: my life sucks and I want to change it. Then I begin to envision what I want to change it to. There is no shame here, no blame, and certainly not a lack of power. It's about focus, and training our minds, and this is the beginning of that process.
This is the beginning of the empowering process that allows us to totally take personal responsibility for our lives.
If this scares you, welcome to my world. It scared me too. No longer could I blame the circumstances of my life on God, or someone else, or them, or even alcohol. Scary, but also a doorway into a life I never dreamed possible.
Someone once told me in a class that if my dreams and visions did not scare me, they weren't big enough.
Life sucked, and at that time my dreams and visions were very small: start life over again with a new way of living that did not include alcohol and drugs. It wasn't a matter of hanging my head in shame for being an alcoholic. It was a matter of refocusing my attention to what I wanted to occur in my life. I wanted to live differently.
If you want to live differently, then you have made a beginning. Acknowledge that. Then begin the process of dreaming big. Do not deter your focus from the prize. Take your focus off a life that sucks and place it on that which you wish to be and do.
I'd love to hear about your journey!